Rambling

Getting my feet wet with this macro stuff again. When I tried the first time, almost a year ago, I flopped. I thought, Yeah, I'll go whole hog! I'll just change everything and stick with it! HA! So I re-read the only macro book I own, 'The Hip Chick's Guide", and discovered some more stuff. I've read up on some sites, too, because I know I can't base a major change of lifestyle like this on one book, no matter how much I like it. I started looking into macrobiotics again because I read some really disturbing things about MSG. It's in everything. Literally. And it does such awful things to your body and your mind; it even has possible links to Alzheimer's, which my grandfather suffered from for probably half of his life. My grandmother has been avoiding it, or trying to, and has noticed a considerable difference. So in reading about all this processed crap that has MSG in it, I was lead back to macro lifestyle. I am also a firm believer in energy systems in the body and the world around us and I don't think these things should be taken lightly. I DO believe that a lot of physical ailments are caused by our diets. So it just makes sense that I give this a shot. I have been very tired and spacey feeling for months now. I am sure it is in part due to stress; with the ups and downs of job and income, the death of our beloved cat, car problems. I do not handle stress well, although I do try. If I don't let it out and vent, a lot, it just builds up inside and wears me down. But I also eat a lot of junk food. Hey, it's cheap. I am currently attempting to cut back on how much sugar and caffeine and table salt I use, and at the same time increasing grains and veggies. I hit the local farmers market last weekend and I will go back tomorrow to stock up again. The thought of giving up potatoes and tomatoes completely is hard to get around. Non-credo, right? I just have to see what works for me. For now I am eating a lot of carrots, parsnips, cabbage and corn. (How can I give up my chips and salsa, now that I've mastered the most amazing salsa recipe???) I visited the health food store today and got a few things: miso, shoyu and tempeh. The owner actually remembered me today. That's a start! It's the coolest little store and an amazing gem for my little town. I might even see about a part time job there. Oh! I did try to make a light soup with some left over brown rice and cabbage and some other things I had waiting in the fridge. I dug out the packages of dulse flakes and nori that I had almost forgotten about and threw some of both in the pot for a bit, hoping it would salty it up, because I love salt! It smelled so good simmering on the stove. Mmmm... I spooned up a bowl and sat down to dig in. I thought, this ought to center me a bit for the day. This is good, healthy stuff, way better than creamer with some coffee and sugar and a piece of toast. It smelled like fish water. And there was no flavor. If it was salty, you couldn't tell. Just hot fishy water smell. *ech* I managed two spoons of the stuff and had to make some chicken salad. Every time I tried to eat another spoonful, my hand would literally stop, unable to bring it to my mouth. (haha!) So, I am going to check out some miso and maybe make up some tempeh-nori-rice-rolls-thingies one day. I am not giving it up. Well, I am not completely on the wagon yet. Tonight is poker night, and that means lots and lots of tequila, and we are having ribs tomorrow night, although I'll likely fill up on some good greens first. And maybe, just maybe, I'll get a piece of that fine ass I married, lol!